What is art?

When I put my pencil to the blank paper,
don't know what the outcome will look like.
It's the anticipation of the end product,
that entices you...
to draw what you're intending on doing.
Drawing for many people is an outlet,
where the pen acts like a free-flowing tap
into those feelings which can't be expressed in mere words.

Actions often get spilt onto paper,
a roaring wild fire which spreads like there is no end.
Raw emotion put on paper,
creeping across the plains of white,
the pen crosses the bare landscape
splashing feelings and emotions,
allowing that outlet to flow with a constant rush,
and pure feeling poured out onto paper.

The brain is blank to the paper
even when your hand is moving.
It's not your brain telling it where to move,
but your still-beating heart,
a direct connection to the pen
until all is drained of what you kept inside;
once bottled up then let go,
free to its will.

Once the heart is stopped,
your head comes to realise
what has happened,
but doesn't know how it happened
or where it came from.
Just a slight sense of relief,
and a last breath before the end.

The rushing tap is closed,
the vessel ready to be filled again.
Art is an outlet,
where anything kept within is released.
It matters not which emotion,
or how intense it can become;
rather, how easy it is to release,
when the pen is put to paper.

What is utopia? What does this word mean to me? What is my utopia

Utopia, a perfect world in which everyone would live in peace and prosperity. In the real world man has his freedom, to make his own choices, this is why a perfect world cannot exist. We all have our own voices and opinions on certain idealist ways of life. We all want to live a certain way different to the man next to us. Imagine a world where no one lies or deceives, we can only imagine that sort of idea. Lies and deceipt are some of the key components that make this world go round. 'Altruism' is one of the amazing realities that really hits you, friends, parents, lovers, thinking they do selfless acts out of kindness and generosity, but think about it in detail, an angle that hasn't been looked at before is just surprising. People are only capable of giving to others, if it benefits themselves or make themselves look good, it is never or actually is for the other peoples benefits, but always for themselves.

Utopia is like Neverland, where fairies and children live, that never turn old. It captures the innocence of children and is a place where freedom has no bounds; the essential fact that is, that it just cannot exist. We all have different values but are greedy, only thinking of satisfying the needs for ourselves. If utopia was an island and it really did exist, it wouldn't take long to turn into a hole, friends are the ones you keep close to, you do favours out of your our accord, but in reality you do for your own benefit. It's really surprising individualistic society and their own utopia, they think they're in this perfect world, first world nations with all the luxuries in life, until the time they die, but is that really what life should be like? To be born, survive, die. Life should be more than that, it should have more meaning to it, something that when you look back you can say, I lived not survived. They say be yourself, be who you are, I say be someone that you're not supposed to be, someone that society would deem as extreme, crazy, insane, but have moral values and respect for life. Be insane with the ideas that surround you, something that would make a difference to a better world. A utopia cannot exist unless you build it yourself.

Don't do something that benefits yourself, but do something that would benefit others by you doing selfless acts. The lies and deception will never leave this world no matter what we do, I'm the biggest hypocrite of them all, I lie and deceive all the time, I can't help it, but we are surrounded but humans an intergrated species on this planet that strives itself to be the best and survive the elements of time. The weakness of every living thing, it's not a nuclear bomb or a gun, nor a sword or a tool that can cause harm to another but it's as simple as itself, it's hope. It's weakness, if you have no hope, where will be no struggle for happiness. Life doesn't have happy ending, just a pit where we fall in when we surrender, when we put down the guns that we struggle to live by in this world.

A world where friends lie, family deceives, lovers thrust a sword through your heart. It's often that we feel alone, only able to trust ourselves keep everything in the confidence of one's soul. Trust in this world is a rare sight to marvel at, rather than be involved in the world take a step back, observe, witness how friends desert each other, people abandon each other for betterment of themselves. People don't care about others as long as they get what they want, they use you and discard you when your of no use to them anymore, this is how actually they world is, a wise man once said awareness will be the rise to your greatness, i have yet to understand that concept "Hope deceives more men than cunning does.". A person these day can lie at the snap of a finger but yet we stay faithful to them no matter what it was, the most painful part of living in this world is we accept it, because we want to be a part of their lives. A utopia in a world like this, there's a more likely chance of men breathing in space. we cant change who they are, but in turn changes who we are, in the process forgetting who we were in the beginning. They say the world keeps changing, and people change with it, no the people change and their world changes with the decision they have made.

Diversity is what makes us different, but also divides us into groups that we don't want to be in, who would want to be different to other people, just stop and think, a relationship with diversity how long will that last for? people want their cake and eat it too, and most people give it to them without hesitation because they care. although it is a wrong statement because people only care for the benefit of themselves. What can I get from this person that can benefit me? They give them the care and attention because it will benefit them in the long run. Most selfless acts can be undone, just by observing in what context the action is done under. The people that leave a legacy in this world after they die, their acts can be seen as selfless - Mother Teresa and the Dalai Lama are excellent examples of this. It's sad sometimes waiting for something or someone to come along and make your life a better place, but hope is a tool never to be trusted, it's like handing a child a loaded gun, now someone is going to get hurt. Utopia is what you make of it, but it can never exist because of the people we live with. People will not going to stop lying and deceiving on your count, but the key is, when they do lie, just smile and nod and disappear into your utopia.

Friends, relationships.

What do other people mean to us? Do we care about them? Do we like them for who they are? Relationships with others don’t define us, but certainly influence how we live life. People ever since they open their eyes for the first time, until the close their eyes for the last time, they are surrounded by people that care for them, but do those people define who that person is going to be; No, you can’t define a person just by looking at the people that surround them, you are defined how on you see good and bad.

It’s your choice to be with the people that surround you, you’re not forced to be with them, it’s your choice, you always can’t change who you are, it would be cheating yourself, who you are is who you are, you have your own ideals and ideas on how to live life, the people that surround you are sometimes not trust worthy, the relationship with them was a total lie, a waste of time, thinking that you knew that person for who they are, but in reality they don’t know who they are themselves. It’s hard to be surrounded by people who define who we are instead of getting to know who you are and what we stand for. Even if people define us, do we know who we are? We may think that we are a certain type of person but in reality we might be the complete opposite, we say we are good friends but are we really? Mistakes are made by everyone no one is perfect but are friends the first one to forgive or the last one to forgive? The relationship we have with others no matter what relationship is still a relationship, we are linked to them somehow and a relationship should be able to withstand trial and error, without faultier, then it’s a relationship worth being defined over.

Sometimes the people that surround you are like roses, they may smell good, look good but with a closer look each rose has thorns, that could cut and hurt if not held properly, but it's the risk that people take in plucking that rose to keep close, but once the rose has been plucked it needs to be nurtured, cared for and looked after, that way it will always blossom in your life, the beauty and petals are still there for years to come. People often don't think before plucking roses, that why it cuts and bleeds they are just as dangerous when they are, but with a firm grasp, it will cut, with the beautiful what lays in your hands are worth every cut, are those people that define u worth the trouble? We are merely a spot in the universe, you are who you are, if you need help defining who you are, instead of spending time defining who you are, search what meaning your life has, what kind of person you really are without other peoples influence, if people help you define who you are, then you’re not yourself, your who they want you to be, you could be surrounded with people that have different values and different ways at looking at viewing certain things, but you should have your own values unhampered by others opinion, then you can certainly original and the relationship with others don’t effect who we are, otherwise we would be living a life of other person than our own.

People could be defined on a large scale like the relationship between United States and Australia, these ties have always been questioned, yes we are defined over it, but we don’t take into effect how people define us because in our mind we are doing the right thing, our relationship with the united states are at an level of understanding that, if united state goes to war, we would be there to support them because they are trusted allies of Australia and they would do the same if Australia makes the same decision. A relationship works to like a two way road, there’s always give and take. The other countries aren’t going to be there if rival country wants to go to war with Australia, but United States trusted allies of Australia would be there as a safety net for our nation, people could define us on how we choose our allegiance, but the security we have are not compared to them.
Relationships with others help us define who we are, relationship with others does not define who we are, who we are is who we see ourselves as, defining us would just be a waste of time, who we are doesn’t matter anymore in a this world, but what we make of ourselves does.

My Bucket List

A bucket list is a list of things to do before you kick the bucket, everyday life just passes you by wont even know the time of day if your integrated into how life is supposed to be, just living life how its supposed to just to survive, but the bucket list is give a chance to break away from everyday life and do something different be something your always wanted to be, or something you always wanted to do, but can't be cause life has its calling. To write down all that you wanted to do somewhere, just keep adding to it as life passes you by.

My Bucket List

1.) Go to Amsterdam with my best friend
2.) Skydiving with best friends
3.) Walk around Saudi Arabia with shorts
4.) Spend the weekend on a deserted island with best friends
5.) Be a franchisee.
6.) Get Conros.
7.) Pull up next to Luke's car and tell him "nice car"
8.) Tell people "You're not in India anymore"
9.) Relax on a boat near the islands.
10.) Buy a house and move out.
11.) Get my eyebrow and ears pierced.
12.) Get a mohawk
13.) Pull up a chair with a cooler and sit on the frontlines and have a couple of beers
14.) Check family history (genealogy)
15.) Want to see the moon hit the beach one more time
16.) Want to spend the night on the beach with someone
17.) Work for the UN for sometime
18.) Tell a Turk I'm Cypriot
19.) Spend a whole day staring at the sky
20.) Get the best subwoofers in the market

The reason for my number one bucket list goal to go to Amsterdam with my best friend is spending time with someone that you can talk to about anything, is just enjoyable even when you're not doing anything. Imagine going overseas to a country where tourist attractions are crazy, going everywhere to bar's, clubs, parties which are breathtaking, being able to do everything you ever wanted to do, every night for the next week! It is overwhelming just thinking about it... having a hotel room all to yourself coming back when you want to, with whomever you want, waking up in the morning going 'ouch crazy night' with a massive headache, but worth it and do it again the next night. My goal to go overseas with my best friend, to sit somewhere just talking about life, and where it's going to take us and just hoping that that weekend never ends is high on the bucket list. When finally the holiday is over, and it's time to go back home, we get older we talk about the past and what we got up to, something to tell the grandkids about, how we used to be as teenagers.

Why should we never judge a book by its cover?

Has anyone taken the time to sit down and observe the little things in life? For normal people, sitting at a train station or traveling on it, could seem uneventful, boring, lifeless, just tiring. For the other people they see it as something more, an opportunity to peek into other people's lifestyles and discover what kind of people they are, just by looking at them, by the way they dress, how they speak, how they react to certain situations.

There is always a good and bad side to everyone, it's just their natural ying and yang. There is always going to be good and bad. Throughout time there have been examples of people that are good and people that are just pure evil, but how can you define good and bad, there is no way for everyone to see good and bad a similar way, it's just impossible. It's how each individual person see's it, which is what makes us who we are, for example, you could see a guy on a train, with tattoos, scars and a huge, built body, what would your first thought be that comes to mind about the guy? Is he a really dangerous guy, involved in something notorious? Well, what if i told you he was gay and recently just fell down a flight of stairs, that was something that you would have never thought of.

People often hide behind these massive walls they build for themselves, to protect who they really are, but in doing that, often they forget what they wanted to protect and become a totally different person. It's like trying to protect a glass vase in a rock slide, if you hide behind something, you're standing still and not going anywhere, if you run away from it, it's going to catch up, if you just put it out there, it's at risk of being smashed, if you hold it too tight you're going to break it yourself, the only way is to just throw it out there if it makes the flight, it's yours to keep, if it doesn't, leave it and find a new one. People judge you on appearance, but if you open up to show who you really are, you're open to ridicule and laughter, either way you're getting shot down. Why not go out guns blazing?

The natural ying and yang of a person, you can never really tell, how much bad there is and, how much good there is in a person, just by looking at them. In darkness there is light, in light there is darkness, it just depends how much light and darkness you possess within you, who you are, and who they are. We are all not supposed to be the same, but unique in every way. Sitting and waiting for a train shouldn't be uneventful but full of surprises, judging a book by its cover is wrong, but still gives us an idea of what a person we see could be like, and what they are inside is just a totally different story.

Belonging to a group does not always create a sense of fulfillment

Belonging to a group always has a sense of fulfillment, not because you are with people but you're with the people you enjoy to be and spend time with. Human beings are naturally social creatures, throughout history humans have interacted with each other in massive groups from the beginning of time. Caveman, hunting and forging parties for the community, their tribe, every single person in that group of people have a sense of fulfillment not because they are in a group but they are with family and friends, and in that group they all have individual skills to contribute to the group to help the tribe survive. This creates a unique sense of fulfillment knowing that your skills help a tribe survive.

As time passed, tribes and groups grew into countries and empires with each person belonging to a specific group among the them to help it survive. As it gets larger people's efforts and contributions often don't get recognised by the certain group of people, the fulfillment of each person and satisfaction of knowing that you actually did something to help even the smallest thing is forgotten, the sense of fulfillment is not there anymore. To have a sense of fulfillment, knowledge of the group that you are part of is necessary, to know if you feel satisfied with who you are with, and what you do with them. Do you enjoy being with them or are you just with them out of fear of being left alone?

Being a part of any group, isn't fulfilling but being a part of a group where you can be yourself and people embrace who you are is fulfilling. Anything you do for the betterment of the group is recognised and appreciated, it does always create a sense of fulfillment being in a group that values your presence, cause it shows your opinion matters in whatever step the group takes. A sense of fulfillment can be created by anything someone does, like an accomplishment in your own life, knowing you did something that would greatly effect your own life is still fulfilling, but it still isn't the same as doing something for the furtherance of the group, because is recognised by all the people involved in the group. There are good groups and bad groups all have their own values and rules that you would have to follow to be a part of. An extreme example would be the police and drug dealers; each group has their own values and ideals, but to belong to any of them you have to know what values you have and what ideals you stand for.

Before you even belonging to a group you have to figure out who you are to be a part of it, or you would joint a group not knowing who you are and adopting values and ideal that are not yours. Further, to continue participating with a group out of fear of being alone in the world, or just wanting to be a part of something to make you feel fulfillment of having some people there to help you in need is necessary. Humans are social creatures we always have to be in a group, no matter what happens it the only way to survive in the world, even from the start of time, if you are left alone in the wild, there is no hope of surviving not because your alone but because each person has a separate skill from another person, and each person contributes their skills for the enhancement of the group. Belonging to a group does always create a sense of fulfillment, because it's just the way we are, the way we are created, and evolution over time demonstrates that belonging to a group has its fulfillment in whatever you do in the group.

It is through our search for identity that we discover where we truly belong.

People would search for who they are, and where they belong, their whole entire life, but most people struggle to find why they are here, what their purpose is on this world and where do they belong. Throughout life, people try to make up something of themselves, to be successful, to be great, but to be any of those things. Search for your true identity, and you would find more than that. Belonging to something that has the same values as yourself but to belong to a group or tribe, you have to find who you are first what you stand for, what values you actually up hold, to find your identity.

'Some men are born great, some achieve greatness, some have greatness thirsted upon them'. (Shakespeare). Alexander the great, was born into a great family that had massive power and influence in Macedonia, his identity and values passed down from his father, to one day have the whole of greece united, but Alexander wanted more than his father did and went on to conquer most of the eastern empires, his search for identity led him across asia, until his death where his identity was shaped as a conqueror, he truly belong as a king of East 'some men are born great'. Hitler was originally an artist on the streets of austria, but through his search for identity and power, he achieved greatness until he went mad with power but he was able to achieve what no man could achieve in that time, was pull a country out of depression 'some achieve greatness' in search for his identity showed where he truly belonged, but at the cost of madness. Joanna Arc had greatness thirsted upon her to led the french army to victory and to liberate france from the british, her identity was a farm girl but after her search for who she was and with the help of a higher being, she found her self in the french army and thats where she truly belonged.

People through out history has given their life to find who they are and what values they have and you can say that its not a wasted life, who would want to live through life living in someone else footpath, someone else dream and living in their identity, hold up values that you grew up with but, have your own to attend to, that would be a wasted life, living life as it passes you by. "the perfect blossom is a rare thing. You can spend your whole life looking for one and it wont be a wasted life." (Katsumoto,The last samurai). This quote can have such great meaning in life if studied closely, looking for even the most simplest things in life isn't a waste cause it can hold much beauty in it that its worth spending a whole life looking for it, looking for who u are what you are made of your identity for your whole life and it wont be a wasted life, cause if u do find who you are, it show you where you belong and what values you have. People are often, who they don't wan't to be, but they are who they are cause life seems so overwhelming that, it just much easier to walk in someone else's footsteps and do what you don't want to do and be who you have no intention of being. "Many people sacrifice their identities by not doing what they want to do. And thats why they're not successful" (James Baldwin)

people philosophize about society and identity, but often contradicting each other, "society exists only as a mental concept; in the real world thee are only individuals" Oscar Wilde compare this quote to Mother Theresa "if we have no peace, its because we have forgotten that we belong to each other" these two quotes has such meaning to it, but two totally different meanings. Each stating the opposite of each other.Oscar Wilde states that belonging is just a mental concept, and identities are individual from each other to an extent that societies a figure of our imagination. Mother Theresa "We can have no peace if we forget that we belong with each other", then by searching for who we are, we find belonging and peace within ourselves and the people that surround us. Civilization as we know it changes everyday with it being new concepts and ideas, history has shown search for identity will give you belonging, but history never repeats itself.