Notice the difference between what happens when a man says to himself "i have failed" and what happens when he says "i am a failure"

In life we fail, it's human nature that errors are committed in our life, but ideally we make those choices to let that error happen, it's not of someone else's doing that we fail but of our own accord.

Everyone learns from their mistakes, no one is perfect, but to pick yourself up every time you make that mistake is what matters, people make mistakes it's a matter of differing between right and wrong, to acknowledge what you make done, to accept that you have failed. Not everyone's views are the same so moral values differ from person to person, so a third party person in your life judges your decision, in their eyes could be seen as a failed decision or the outcome is not of his liking or the society that we live in for that matter, but the outcome of the decision is only for your benefit, what you do with that outcome and how you deal with it is the major difference between a failure and acknowledging your failure and rising to the trial of getting over it.

In a year, you might fail once, twice or maybe even three times but the reality of that is you would fail, a million time in a day and wouldn't realise the errors you have made, it's the little things in life that measure up to a point where a decision has to be made what to do with the mistakes and failed attempts. It's a matter or being able to climb up those stairs tripping, falling down, picking yourself up and just keep running up, being shot down doesn't mean you can't get to where you want because you cant fly anymore, its a matter of tying up those broken wings and using what you have left to get what you want or to get where you want, yes you would get tramped on, kicked at, pushed aside, but the emotional drive that lies in what your heart desires pushes not only you but the human body to such extremes that things that seem impossible to one person, can be seen as within their grasps of another.

Path to life isn't always set out for us, it's what we do with the tool's we have to make the path what we want it to be. life is always going to have it trials and tribulations, no one is perfect. Perfection is over rated, but trying to achieve it is not, wishing that life would throw you a life line, and turn your head when it does is just stupidity. Is someone ever the reason why your failure succeeded? Ask a person that failed three times and still got up, all he needed to know was blood was still pumping through his body and had a heart of gold, never give up on something you believe in unless what you believe in gave up on you, life throws you a life line and lets go because it believes its not worth your time anymore in letting go it allows you to fall, and learn so when you hit rock bottom, pick up that line, run up the stairs tie up life as you 'knew' it and let it roll down the stairs when you're on top, you would never want to climb down again, then live how you would want to not how life should be lived it leaves no chance of failure. The dust has settled with the trials of life and it shows the difference when a man says to himself "I have failed" and what happens when he says "I am a failure".

Failure is not an option for some people, they want what the heart desires but it comes to a point where the the trials of reaching what their desire is an impossible task, like running at a brick wall over and over again, unless you got something big enough to smash it down, failure is not an option it's something that is cast upon us that destroys our willingness to continue the fight for what we want. Accepting that you have failed, is acknowledging the trials and errors as useless but, to pick yourself up after you failed is the difference between stating "I have failed" and sitting and soaking up the mistakes and failed trials is accepting "I am a failure".

Live as you will have wished to have lived when you are dying.

You could never see around the corner, what lies after it or what's waiting for you. In the world we have our toe tippers and cannon ballers, toe tippers people that check to see what it's like first before making a decision and the cannon ballers just dive in, no matter what the outcome is because in the end doesn't matter what your decision is, your going to have to deal with it. If your a toe tipper or a cannon baller, it's your decision if you take your chance and run around the corner or take a look first then walk, if life is there to knock you out it doesn't matter if you walk or run, still going to get knocked out.

Today, people never live life they do what they have to do to get by 'surviving' is essential. Living is a totally different concept to surviving, living is enjoying life in all its wonder doing everything to experience life before their last breath. Surviving doing what is necessary to live so that they can see the next day and do the same thing so that they would be able to see the day after that. Thats not living at all and when their on their last breath, a sort of wish escapes with it, the wish to have lived not survived. Some people say life was already written for us and what we do is what was meant to happen, that we have no real power in what lies in our future just how we deal with it that is where the power if left in our choice. living life is a gift, surviving life is a burden to which there is no point in living, the end result is always the same, wished to have lived life on their terms not of one that was set of us.

Awareness does that help us live our life or does it give us and excuse to keep second guessing the decisions we make? Conflict of interest, you can be aware of the situation that lies before you, what outcome it would have in each decision you make, but what the mind doesn't want the heart desires, what the heart doesn't want the mind desires. Even if its bad for you and you have the knowledge that it will hurt you, there is no stopping how you feel or what your heart wants, this is why the heart always wins over the mind. if fate handed you it's last deck of cards and had a limited amount of time before it engulfs you, would you have lived differently to the way you were just living? or would u just keeping living as you were? The story of Adam and Eve, how they defied God and ate from the forbidden tree, it gave them knowledge of good and evil, what the mind desires the heart doesn't want. It was only the mind that was effected by knowledge, but knowledge does not effect how you feel or he things you do out of affection for one and other, things you do out of our own accord does not come from your mind but from the heart, happiness in life, come from making the person next to you smile.

live as you will have wished to have lived when you are dying. Death is just a stepping stone into the unknown, instead of fearing it, embrace it with open arms, after you have gone only you would know what lies after the unknown, this corrupt world would be a thing of the past. The people you love and miss,will all have to go through this experience one day, and in that time death is what you make of it. Live to be remembered, die to leave a legacy.

What is art?

When I put my pencil to the blank paper,
don't know what the outcome will look like.
It's the anticipation of the end product,
that entices you...
to draw what you're intending on doing.
Drawing for many people is an outlet,
where the pen acts like a free-flowing tap
into those feelings which can't be expressed in mere words.

Actions often get spilt onto paper,
a roaring wild fire which spreads like there is no end.
Raw emotion put on paper,
creeping across the plains of white,
the pen crosses the bare landscape
splashing feelings and emotions,
allowing that outlet to flow with a constant rush,
and pure feeling poured out onto paper.

The brain is blank to the paper
even when your hand is moving.
It's not your brain telling it where to move,
but your still-beating heart,
a direct connection to the pen
until all is drained of what you kept inside;
once bottled up then let go,
free to its will.

Once the heart is stopped,
your head comes to realise
what has happened,
but doesn't know how it happened
or where it came from.
Just a slight sense of relief,
and a last breath before the end.

The rushing tap is closed,
the vessel ready to be filled again.
Art is an outlet,
where anything kept within is released.
It matters not which emotion,
or how intense it can become;
rather, how easy it is to release,
when the pen is put to paper.

What is utopia? What does this word mean to me? What is my utopia

Utopia, a perfect world in which everyone would live in peace and prosperity. In the real world man has his freedom, to make his own choices, this is why a perfect world cannot exist. We all have our own voices and opinions on certain idealist ways of life. We all want to live a certain way different to the man next to us. Imagine a world where no one lies or deceives, we can only imagine that sort of idea. Lies and deceipt are some of the key components that make this world go round. 'Altruism' is one of the amazing realities that really hits you, friends, parents, lovers, thinking they do selfless acts out of kindness and generosity, but think about it in detail, an angle that hasn't been looked at before is just surprising. People are only capable of giving to others, if it benefits themselves or make themselves look good, it is never or actually is for the other peoples benefits, but always for themselves.

Utopia is like Neverland, where fairies and children live, that never turn old. It captures the innocence of children and is a place where freedom has no bounds; the essential fact that is, that it just cannot exist. We all have different values but are greedy, only thinking of satisfying the needs for ourselves. If utopia was an island and it really did exist, it wouldn't take long to turn into a hole, friends are the ones you keep close to, you do favours out of your our accord, but in reality you do for your own benefit. It's really surprising individualistic society and their own utopia, they think they're in this perfect world, first world nations with all the luxuries in life, until the time they die, but is that really what life should be like? To be born, survive, die. Life should be more than that, it should have more meaning to it, something that when you look back you can say, I lived not survived. They say be yourself, be who you are, I say be someone that you're not supposed to be, someone that society would deem as extreme, crazy, insane, but have moral values and respect for life. Be insane with the ideas that surround you, something that would make a difference to a better world. A utopia cannot exist unless you build it yourself.

Don't do something that benefits yourself, but do something that would benefit others by you doing selfless acts. The lies and deception will never leave this world no matter what we do, I'm the biggest hypocrite of them all, I lie and deceive all the time, I can't help it, but we are surrounded but humans an intergrated species on this planet that strives itself to be the best and survive the elements of time. The weakness of every living thing, it's not a nuclear bomb or a gun, nor a sword or a tool that can cause harm to another but it's as simple as itself, it's hope. It's weakness, if you have no hope, where will be no struggle for happiness. Life doesn't have happy ending, just a pit where we fall in when we surrender, when we put down the guns that we struggle to live by in this world.

A world where friends lie, family deceives, lovers thrust a sword through your heart. It's often that we feel alone, only able to trust ourselves keep everything in the confidence of one's soul. Trust in this world is a rare sight to marvel at, rather than be involved in the world take a step back, observe, witness how friends desert each other, people abandon each other for betterment of themselves. People don't care about others as long as they get what they want, they use you and discard you when your of no use to them anymore, this is how actually they world is, a wise man once said awareness will be the rise to your greatness, i have yet to understand that concept "Hope deceives more men than cunning does.". A person these day can lie at the snap of a finger but yet we stay faithful to them no matter what it was, the most painful part of living in this world is we accept it, because we want to be a part of their lives. A utopia in a world like this, there's a more likely chance of men breathing in space. we cant change who they are, but in turn changes who we are, in the process forgetting who we were in the beginning. They say the world keeps changing, and people change with it, no the people change and their world changes with the decision they have made.

Diversity is what makes us different, but also divides us into groups that we don't want to be in, who would want to be different to other people, just stop and think, a relationship with diversity how long will that last for? people want their cake and eat it too, and most people give it to them without hesitation because they care. although it is a wrong statement because people only care for the benefit of themselves. What can I get from this person that can benefit me? They give them the care and attention because it will benefit them in the long run. Most selfless acts can be undone, just by observing in what context the action is done under. The people that leave a legacy in this world after they die, their acts can be seen as selfless - Mother Teresa and the Dalai Lama are excellent examples of this. It's sad sometimes waiting for something or someone to come along and make your life a better place, but hope is a tool never to be trusted, it's like handing a child a loaded gun, now someone is going to get hurt. Utopia is what you make of it, but it can never exist because of the people we live with. People will not going to stop lying and deceiving on your count, but the key is, when they do lie, just smile and nod and disappear into your utopia.

Friends, relationships.

What do other people mean to us? Do we care about them? Do we like them for who they are? Relationships with others don’t define us, but certainly influence how we live life. People ever since they open their eyes for the first time, until the close their eyes for the last time, they are surrounded by people that care for them, but do those people define who that person is going to be; No, you can’t define a person just by looking at the people that surround them, you are defined how on you see good and bad.

It’s your choice to be with the people that surround you, you’re not forced to be with them, it’s your choice, you always can’t change who you are, it would be cheating yourself, who you are is who you are, you have your own ideals and ideas on how to live life, the people that surround you are sometimes not trust worthy, the relationship with them was a total lie, a waste of time, thinking that you knew that person for who they are, but in reality they don’t know who they are themselves. It’s hard to be surrounded by people who define who we are instead of getting to know who you are and what we stand for. Even if people define us, do we know who we are? We may think that we are a certain type of person but in reality we might be the complete opposite, we say we are good friends but are we really? Mistakes are made by everyone no one is perfect but are friends the first one to forgive or the last one to forgive? The relationship we have with others no matter what relationship is still a relationship, we are linked to them somehow and a relationship should be able to withstand trial and error, without faultier, then it’s a relationship worth being defined over.

Sometimes the people that surround you are like roses, they may smell good, look good but with a closer look each rose has thorns, that could cut and hurt if not held properly, but it's the risk that people take in plucking that rose to keep close, but once the rose has been plucked it needs to be nurtured, cared for and looked after, that way it will always blossom in your life, the beauty and petals are still there for years to come. People often don't think before plucking roses, that why it cuts and bleeds they are just as dangerous when they are, but with a firm grasp, it will cut, with the beautiful what lays in your hands are worth every cut, are those people that define u worth the trouble? We are merely a spot in the universe, you are who you are, if you need help defining who you are, instead of spending time defining who you are, search what meaning your life has, what kind of person you really are without other peoples influence, if people help you define who you are, then you’re not yourself, your who they want you to be, you could be surrounded with people that have different values and different ways at looking at viewing certain things, but you should have your own values unhampered by others opinion, then you can certainly original and the relationship with others don’t effect who we are, otherwise we would be living a life of other person than our own.

People could be defined on a large scale like the relationship between United States and Australia, these ties have always been questioned, yes we are defined over it, but we don’t take into effect how people define us because in our mind we are doing the right thing, our relationship with the united states are at an level of understanding that, if united state goes to war, we would be there to support them because they are trusted allies of Australia and they would do the same if Australia makes the same decision. A relationship works to like a two way road, there’s always give and take. The other countries aren’t going to be there if rival country wants to go to war with Australia, but United States trusted allies of Australia would be there as a safety net for our nation, people could define us on how we choose our allegiance, but the security we have are not compared to them.
Relationships with others help us define who we are, relationship with others does not define who we are, who we are is who we see ourselves as, defining us would just be a waste of time, who we are doesn’t matter anymore in a this world, but what we make of ourselves does.

My Bucket List

A bucket list is a list of things to do before you kick the bucket, everyday life just passes you by wont even know the time of day if your integrated into how life is supposed to be, just living life how its supposed to just to survive, but the bucket list is give a chance to break away from everyday life and do something different be something your always wanted to be, or something you always wanted to do, but can't be cause life has its calling. To write down all that you wanted to do somewhere, just keep adding to it as life passes you by.

My Bucket List

1.) Go to Amsterdam with my best friend
2.) Skydiving with best friends
3.) Walk around Saudi Arabia with shorts
4.) Spend the weekend on a deserted island with best friends
5.) Be a franchisee.
6.) Get Conros.
7.) Pull up next to Luke's car and tell him "nice car"
8.) Tell people "You're not in India anymore"
9.) Relax on a boat near the islands.
10.) Buy a house and move out.
11.) Get my eyebrow and ears pierced.
12.) Get a mohawk
13.) Pull up a chair with a cooler and sit on the frontlines and have a couple of beers
14.) Check family history (genealogy)
15.) Want to see the moon hit the beach one more time
16.) Want to spend the night on the beach with someone
17.) Work for the UN for sometime
18.) Tell a Turk I'm Cypriot
19.) Spend a whole day staring at the sky
20.) Get the best subwoofers in the market

The reason for my number one bucket list goal to go to Amsterdam with my best friend is spending time with someone that you can talk to about anything, is just enjoyable even when you're not doing anything. Imagine going overseas to a country where tourist attractions are crazy, going everywhere to bar's, clubs, parties which are breathtaking, being able to do everything you ever wanted to do, every night for the next week! It is overwhelming just thinking about it... having a hotel room all to yourself coming back when you want to, with whomever you want, waking up in the morning going 'ouch crazy night' with a massive headache, but worth it and do it again the next night. My goal to go overseas with my best friend, to sit somewhere just talking about life, and where it's going to take us and just hoping that that weekend never ends is high on the bucket list. When finally the holiday is over, and it's time to go back home, we get older we talk about the past and what we got up to, something to tell the grandkids about, how we used to be as teenagers.

Why should we never judge a book by its cover?

Has anyone taken the time to sit down and observe the little things in life? For normal people, sitting at a train station or traveling on it, could seem uneventful, boring, lifeless, just tiring. For the other people they see it as something more, an opportunity to peek into other people's lifestyles and discover what kind of people they are, just by looking at them, by the way they dress, how they speak, how they react to certain situations.

There is always a good and bad side to everyone, it's just their natural ying and yang. There is always going to be good and bad. Throughout time there have been examples of people that are good and people that are just pure evil, but how can you define good and bad, there is no way for everyone to see good and bad a similar way, it's just impossible. It's how each individual person see's it, which is what makes us who we are, for example, you could see a guy on a train, with tattoos, scars and a huge, built body, what would your first thought be that comes to mind about the guy? Is he a really dangerous guy, involved in something notorious? Well, what if i told you he was gay and recently just fell down a flight of stairs, that was something that you would have never thought of.

People often hide behind these massive walls they build for themselves, to protect who they really are, but in doing that, often they forget what they wanted to protect and become a totally different person. It's like trying to protect a glass vase in a rock slide, if you hide behind something, you're standing still and not going anywhere, if you run away from it, it's going to catch up, if you just put it out there, it's at risk of being smashed, if you hold it too tight you're going to break it yourself, the only way is to just throw it out there if it makes the flight, it's yours to keep, if it doesn't, leave it and find a new one. People judge you on appearance, but if you open up to show who you really are, you're open to ridicule and laughter, either way you're getting shot down. Why not go out guns blazing?

The natural ying and yang of a person, you can never really tell, how much bad there is and, how much good there is in a person, just by looking at them. In darkness there is light, in light there is darkness, it just depends how much light and darkness you possess within you, who you are, and who they are. We are all not supposed to be the same, but unique in every way. Sitting and waiting for a train shouldn't be uneventful but full of surprises, judging a book by its cover is wrong, but still gives us an idea of what a person we see could be like, and what they are inside is just a totally different story.